T3-19/20

19

Sometime ago, on one of those days where I would usually go on a whining tirade on my blog or to people around me, I was reading a blog quite late at night when I should have been doing something else.

It was by someone who I've never really thought about, and I do admit I've had quite a bit of preconceived notions about this person.

There was just one blog I was reading, which just seemed to be perfectly matched to the song I was listening to (Utada Hikaru, and live, of course), and that post was a very... I'm not sure how to describe it, but it was thought provoking and definetly from the bottom of that person's heart, you could just tell.

And reading that, I reflected on my thoughts of that person, and I cannot believe how extremely stupid and idiotic my notions were.

For some reason, there are some people that, subconsciously, I think are just somehow not capable of much reflective emotion. I never realized that, it was buried underneath the surface.

Obviously, now I have learnt from it, and will try very hard to not let those notions ever appear again.

20

I was doing a plan yesterday for what I have to do this week, and I realized that if I wanted to accomplish everything, I would have to do 6 hours of work every day.

Then, I gave up and played games.

I also stumbled upon some of the billions of reflections that I had to write in MACC.
Reading it, I realized that the writing at the same time used words that seemed advanced, and very casual ones at the same time.

I don't dare to look at my writing nowadays and compare the two, as I know how much my vocabulary has worsened over the past two years.

It truly is disappointing.